Dale and I were talking about our progress through "culture shock" in our 5 weeks here so far and I was telling him that the one thing I really have had a hard time adjusting to in Costa Rica is that I can not find the kind of detailed information about things, especially through online sources, like I was accustomed to in the US. I am addicted to doing online research about every tiny detail of every aspect of my life. I like to be prepared for all possible contingencies. And in Costa Rica, information is very hard to find and any that you do get, won't necessarily hold up. Gosh, but I have a tremendous amount of anxiety when I can't pin down exactly what's going to happen. I also see that while there has been a need for a certain amount of to-do-list making, problem solving and purchasing to get a certain level of comfort here, I am having trouble turning that off and not just moving on to the next project to tackle. And there's always a next project. It doesn't help that in the corporate world, I was encouraged and rewarded for having a "sense of urgency" and being productive and efficient. Not that there isn't a time and place for those skills but a steady diet of it only leads to burn-out. However, I'm not quite sure what I should be doing, if not engaged in busy work all the day long. Apparently is there isn't legitimate stress from the environment, I will create it inside my head to distract myself from....ummm....well maybe it's time to explore that.
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